I Move Out in August

The college countdown has officially begun in my mind. In 138 days (if I counted correctly) I will no longer be a permanent resident in the house I’ve grown up in, I will no longer have to report to Fortel’s five times a week to work my underpaying job, and I will no longer have to hangout around the same people I’ve been surrounded by these past 4 years of high school.

I am so happy to be getting out of this area and living somewhere completely new. I need to branch out and it would be much harder to do that if I never got the chance to live somewhere other than Ellisville, Missouri. But I think at this moment in time, I am mostly looking forward to meeting new people and finding different things to do. I love my friends and I’m sure I’ll keep in touch with a lot of them, but distance will definitely play its inevitable part when the time comes to college. I think about my favorite memories I’ve made from high school, and although there were some really great times, I am more than ready to loosen my grip on all that has happened and begin looking forward to what is ahead of me. You can’t hold onto everything forever, and I don’t think I would ever want to. People will come and go throughout our entire lives, and all you can do about it is recognize the time you have with them and then appreciate it when it’s over and more importantly KNOW when it’s over. Growth comes from new experiences, and I don’t think you can do much growing when you try holding on to something that simply belongs in the past. There are places we’ve been that we no longer go, there are people we love that we have to let go. I always think I know myself really well, but I usually end up feeling the opposite way whenever something happens and I don’t know how to deal with it.The next 4 years of my life are going to build a very strong foundation of who I will be in my adult years, and I remind myself of that whenever I feel like the realities of high school are overwhelming. But I’m 17 years old, and I have plenty of time to figure out who exactly it is that I want to be!


What’s the deal with Taylor Swift’s squad?

Selena Gomez, Gigi Hadid, Lily Aldridge, Cara Delevingne: We have seen them all and many other A-List celebrities out and about with the one and only Taylor Swift. From strolling the streets of New York City to strutting down the glamorous runway together at one of Taylor’s concerts, it is apparent that the girl squad Taylor has built is nothing if not a very fascinating, elite group.

I remember the first time I ever watched the music video for one of Taylor Swift’s hit singles, “Bad Blood.” In case you have not yet seen or even heard of this video, the leading roles include Taylor Swift and sixteen of her closest friends, otherwise known as her “squad.” While watching the music video with wide, starstruck eyes, I began wondering more and more about the people starring in it. Questions flooded my curious mind like, How did these ladies come together as a squad in the first place? Did they all just happen to hangout one night and realize they got along well enough to immediately become best friends? Did Taylor hold top-secret “Potential Squad Member” auditions at her house? (And if so, why did nobody tell me? I so would have tried out.) The interest I took in Taylor Swift and her squad only continued to grow from then on, but as I started paying more attention I quickly noticed that maybe her squad of rich, famous, A-List girls seemed a little too exclusive.

Not only are they all very popular names being discussed in the media right now, but they are also all extremely beautiful and successful in their designated industries such as modeling, singing, and acting. From what I can tell from the daily paparazzi photos taken of Taylor, she is almost never seen with an unfamiliar face, but instead frequently photographed with her famous gal pals. These documented moments are very entertaining, but many people have begun to feel that that’s the entire purpose of her “squad” in the first place. Could this really be nothing other than a big publicity stunt performed by Taylor in order to climb to the very top of the social ladder for fame? Are these friendships of hers simply surface-level rather than genuine and true? Maybe I’m wrong, and maybe this group of girlfriends really does have authentic chemistry with one another and seek fulfillment in being friends, but it takes a long time to build sincere and long lasting relationships with people. The fact that Taylor suddenly came out with a large, newfound group of Hollywood’s most popular women seems highly suspicious.

Another part of Taylor Swift’s “Bad Blood” girl squad that I have had quite some trouble understanding is what exactly their ultimate motive was for the video. The song is rumored to have been written about Katy Perry, another powerful woman in the singing industry who also happens to be one of Taylor’s biggest enemies. The video revolves around Taylor and her squad learning how to fight while preparing for some type of battle between them and another woman. The squad must have known who the song was about and that the video was not-so-subtly hinting towards Taylor’s personal vendetta against Katy Perry. I do not think that it is right for Taylor’s friends to join in on the drama and gain up on Katy too just because Taylor and her have had problems in the past. Regardless of its shininess and entertaining factor, it’s 2016, and I think Taylor and her clique should be using their powerful platform to promote the idea of women treating other women kindly rather than making it a point to publicly take down another singer.

Whether it was one big forced friendship or just a natural connection between the many women, I don’t think the world will ever know how Taylor Swift’s girl squad truly came to be. Whichever one it is, I think the rest of us should stop paying so much attention to someone else’s friends so much and start finding people you would want to be in your own squad.