The college countdown has officially begun in my mind. In 138 days (if I counted correctly) I will no longer be a permanent resident in the house I’ve grown up in, I will no longer have to report to Fortel’s five times a week to work my underpaying job, and I will no longer have to hangout around the same people I’ve been surrounded by these past 4 years of high school.
I am so happy to be getting out of this area and living somewhere completely new. I need to branch out and it would be much harder to do that if I never got the chance to live somewhere other than Ellisville, Missouri. But I think at this moment in time, I am mostly looking forward to meeting new people and finding different things to do. I love my friends and I’m sure I’ll keep in touch with a lot of them, but distance will definitely play its inevitable part when the time comes to college. I think about my favorite memories I’ve made from high school, and although there were some really great times, I am more than ready to loosen my grip on all that has happened and begin looking forward to what is ahead of me. You can’t hold onto everything forever, and I don’t think I would ever want to. People will come and go throughout our entire lives, and all you can do about it is recognize the time you have with them and then appreciate it when it’s over and more importantly KNOW when it’s over. Growth comes from new experiences, and I don’t think you can do much growing when you try holding on to something that simply belongs in the past. There are places we’ve been that we no longer go, there are people we love that we have to let go. I always think I know myself really well, but I usually end up feeling the opposite way whenever something happens and I don’t know how to deal with it.The next 4 years of my life are going to build a very strong foundation of who I will be in my adult years, and I remind myself of that whenever I feel like the realities of high school are overwhelming. But I’m 17 years old, and I have plenty of time to figure out who exactly it is that I want to be!